I rode up in the elevator with a woman today and she shared how she was feeling, she said “If only my back would stop hurting I believe the world would be a beautiful place.”
As I exited the elevator my thoughts were on what she had said and about my own pain and I immediately knew deep within me that the world is a beautiful place if Jesus is my center, the bible tells us that there are going to be tough times, pressure from all around and yes, pain and suffering.
I am reminded of when I was expecting my daughter, I knew that labor was going to be painful but I knew the end result would be the birth of my child, and even after labor and a C-section to deliver her the pain was quickly forgotten because I held my beautiful miracle in my arms. And yes I have pain everyday and sometimes it feels like it is too hard to go on but I know the end result and it is beautiful, Christ died an excruciating death so that I could experience the beauty of His love even in my pain and so that I would have the promise of a painless eternity with Him. Christ has made all things beautiful.
I have RSD & I am learning through this thing that is happening in my body, I am learning to lean not on my own understanding, because my understanding doesn’t have a clue! I am learning that when I am in pain I get scared.
As I wrote that word, the word scared, the emotions that it stirred up in me are crazy, why is it that as a Christian the admission of being scared makes me feel less than the believer I thought I was and that admitting it brings about even more fear?? But then just as quickly as those thoughts came over me, the Holy Spirit swoops in and fills me, replacing what threaten to consume me just seconds ago with the assurance that I need not fear He is forever with me and reminding me that RSD has already been eradicated by the Healer who took it in His own body, held it His flesh and took it to the Cross where it died when His physical body died. This is understood as reality by my spirit being, it is my choice to believe and trust in this truth until the day that it manifests as such in my body. Do I trust and believe in all that Jesus accomplished for me, for us, on the Cross? YES, I do!! And in believing this fear no longer has any hold on me. I am learning…
He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right. By his wounds you are healed.
1 Peter 2:24 (NLT)